Too Deep

Too many tears
Too much pain
Cut Me
Cut Me Deep
I want to see
The Blood oozing
The tears falling
I want to feel a small ounce of your pain
I want to understand
How you feel
Everyday
Every hour
Every second
That goes by
But can i…?

memories & my feeling for you

The day I first met you
Was the day that I couldn’t
Look at you straight in the eye
I was shy but I’ve grown since then
As we talked
I knew instantly we would be good friends
I squirted orange juice at you
Funny looking back
As we parted you asked
If I would like to do this again
My answer was yes,
Your company was enjoyable and still is even now

We grew closer
As time went by I could feel you liked me
I liked you too
You had a girl though
Who didn’t deserve you
But you with your good soul
Didn’t want to leave her
I was there by your side
Encouraging you to leave her
Not only because I cared so much
But because I secretly wanted you

We went to the cinema
One cold December day
The day I shared 1 of the many beautiful memories with you
We laughed hard & joked a lot
We were only friends
But it felt like a date
You asked me if you could hold my hand
I politely accepted
You gripped it when the scary scene came
Reassuring to know that
I wasn’t the only one scared of the ending
Of paranormal activity
Don’t deny it because I know the truth!

The next day
Was the day we became a couple
Your exact words were
“Be by my side”
Couldn’t believe it
That you were finally mine
Me & you
That’s the way it should be always

Every day I saw you
From then on
I grew happier
Didn’t know what I did to deserve a guy like you
I didn’t even know it was possible
To find a guy as wonderful & genuine as you
I’m speaking the absolute truth.


The only problem was me
Insecurities got the better of me
Not sure if I was really ready for a relationship
I was scared I wasn’t going to love you
Even though I liked you so much
Because I just wanted the best for you
Didn’t want to end up hurting you
Even though I ending up doing so
In a way
So I run away, the biggest mistake of my life

Theres no going back now
I’m going to always remember what we had
I know you are too
I know I will never get another chance
Too late, you found some one new
I must admit I’m jealous of her
I don’t think I completely moved on
I just pray she treats you better
And gives you all the love you deserve

Just know
I am always here for you
No matter what to listen to your problems & give advice
To make you laugh & to catch every single tear that may fall upon your eye
If only I was stronger
If only I was sure of myself
If only we met earlier
If only I could turn back time then maybe, just maybe...
I would still be with you creating more beautiful memories
There’s no point of saying if only
Because everything happens for a reason
& all good things come to an end
I'm just glad you were mine just for a moment in time

I'll Be There

when your feeling blue
To wipe away all the tears in your eyes
To catch you when you fall
And when your happy
we can smile and laugh together
When you need someone to talk too
For sure i'll listen to you
Be there for you always
Like your there for me
I'll be your best friend, one love and family
your all in one
I'll be whatever you want me to be baby

Earth

The sky is getting darker

A load rumble escapes from the clouds

Rain falls

Upset and angry

Showing the pain

Of the earth through it tears

And trying to help nourish the already ruined earth

Save it from the humans who destroy it

Without a thought or doubt

They don’t realize

The earth is capable of pain too.

Restless Soul

Again

Another sleepless night

Always this feeling

Won’t go away

Indescribable

There’s a whole in my heart

A piece missing

Want to be happy

Yet it’s impossible

I’m inconsolable

The next day arrives

Plaster on a fake smile

No one knows

Behind this is my restless soul

Dark Shadow

I am a dark shadow
A shadow of no real existence
I walk, my feet barely touching the ground
In these streets alone, unnoticed
I take small baby steps
Not knowing my destination
I wonder to myself
Why am i here?
In this cold cruel world
World I seem not to belong
I want to be free
Leave this world and be free

Valentine x

Waiting

On the foot of my stair case

For the post

Hoping I will get at least one card

Letters come tumbling down

My heart leaps

I ran fast

Grabbing the pile of cards

I hunt hopelessly

Only valentine cards for my beautiful sister

I feel a familiar sensation

Of my heart breaking

I furiously chuck her cards in the bin

I scream

My lungs bursting out of me

I collapse on the floor

Tears rolling down

Uncontrollable and unstoppable

With shaky fingers

I take out my compact mirror

My revolting reflection staring back at me

No one would ever want to be my valentine

But you know what?

I’m still hoping